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I’m fat.
No, really. I’m fat, quite fat. I’m not big boned and I don’t carry it well, so don’t try to placate me; my weight starts with the number “three” and I’m not nine feet tall.
I know that, from my writing, you probably think I’m a tall, leggy blonde. Well, I have to disabuse you of that notion: I am tall and leggy, but I’m very much a brunette. Also, fat.
And now I’ve opened myself to public shaming on the internet, yay!
After thirty-two years, I’m getting pretty tired of being fat. It’s hard to find nice pants or cute bras. And as it turns out, fat people don’t get a lot of perqs in our society, so it’s not really doing anything for me.
So I’m stopping. As of this morning, Plan: Be Less Fat has been actualized.
Let me be clear: I’m a big proponent of health at any size, and I don’t want to be and will never be a skinny person; it’s not my build, that’s not the goal and it’s not really about the pants. But I’m not healthy, and all this fat is a side effect of that. I guess I should call it Plan: Good Health, but that’s not as catchy.
This isn’t going to turn into a diet blog or anything. For one, I still plan on consuming bacon and cheese and gimlets in moderation; I also don’t think of myself as being on a diet so much as trying to make life-long changes to my eating habits. (Things will of necessity get healthier around here, though.)
Anyway, I just thought the internet might want to know. Here’s to making it to a weight that starts with a “one”!
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I’ve been lurking for a while – loved the Top Chef live blogs! Couldn’t resist subscribing as I wanted to send all the support in the world on this new journey of yours…
I am fat, too, and not at all tall and leggy, but average height with stumpy little legs. I am also 32, as of 2 days ago and not ready to feel like an old lady.
I lost a bunch of weight (Post break up depression FTW) a couple of years ago but it has found me, and I think, brought a few friends.
I have medical condition which makes weight easy to gain and difficult to lose, but fuck it, I did it before and I will again. All of you have inspired me. I’m in!
dude – I love your blog. It almost inspired one of my own but my mom and I never got our act together to buy a domain name and start it up. BEST of Luck in your endeavors to lose weight and get healthy. I’ve been grappling with some shitty depression and decided to join a gym to try and cheer myself up with exercise and endorphins. Hopefully it’ll work for us all!
I want you to feel good and be happy, so if that means losing some weight, go for it, but fair warning that I roll my eyes nearly out of my head when people equate thin to healthy and fat to unhealthy. I know you already said you’re pro-HAES, so I’m not really directing this at you so much as people who will misguidedly fat-hate as a gesture of support.
Anyway, I hope you have great success at it and feel better and buy some totally cute pants.
i just found your blog today and i’m in love, in a girl-loves-girl-who-blogs-the-funniest-shit-ever kind of way. rock on with plan: be less fat. it’s not easy but i think you have the sanest approach. all the best!
i dont know if this is a compliment to you or not, but its really, really reassuring to me that you are in fact not a perfect little blond. when there’s someone i look up to, as i do your writing, humor and culinary talent, i always assume they could look nothing like me. my weight doesnt start with a 1 either, but i hope it will someday [i just got a huge "YOU'RE GONNA DIE" talk from my psychiatrist... yeah, THAT makes me feel better]. good luck to you.
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ALREADY!!?? How does it feel?? I went and bought the book the first day you posted this but haven’t started yet.. I’m impressed 21 already!!!!
wow! that is amazing considering the food still looks so damned good! good for you! I applaud your progress… and am inspired!